My Extended Weekend Away...

IT WAS AMAZING to be just ME!!!

I found things in my personality that I want to strengthen, and things I want to change, traits that don't follow me completely. I found my own passion. My passion to want to grow. To be me, to be the best of me. I found insecurities, things I want to strengthen. I found so much...

First, it was amazing to see my bestie Kristi, she is so much more than I remember from when we were younger. Which is something I expected, but it was justified and multiplied times 10 the more time I spent to get to know her again. Seeing the person she has become and the person she wants more to be more of made me feel normal. She has a way with listening and her words are very comforting. Regardless if the truth hurts, she is still on your side, trying to help you through whatever it is that you may need. I can't wait to spend time with her again. The laughs we had cannot compare to any others I have had in my life. Truly a best girlie friend to be had for a lifetime. Her husband, Sean, is an amazing man, with a strong personality of humor and comfort. The stories he has will have you laughing so hard you think you are going to pee your pants. Kristi parents (Becki and Craig) are the same loving people I remember. People I want more in my life. Her in laws (Gene and Jenny) are incredibly accomplished people, with so many talents they want to share with those who want to learn. People who can teach you about life and being grateful. (Which reminds me I need to write and send thank you notes to everyone.) The bridesmaids (especially Beth and Sarah) are models of ladies I need more in my life. Bryan aka Mator, hehe, provided plenty of laughs and information that only a person full of experiences could share. Brian, Jenna, and Barry... thank you for the company all Saturday night. Especially Barry. :D He danced with me most of the night, and kept me safe from Uncle Bob's dancing... (LOL!) and we had plenty of conversation that kept us up talking till 4 in the morning talking about our lives, Sean and Kristi.

And Joshua... what a character... a person with so much to share. A person full of energy that will make you needing to sleep for days to recover from. A person so much more complicated than it seems, full of secrets you'll never know or will ever understand. A personality quick to read, but the wheels too complex to understand. It would take a lifetime to just get the gist. He is honest, fun, kind, caring, growing, outgoing, funny, smart, reserved, determined, stubborn, loving, ignorant, and yet still quite the gentleman. The lady that wins his heart will sure be a lucky one. (Whoever she may be better take care of him, or I will fly over there and gouge her eyes out. :D Also, he needs more vegetables in his diet! ;D If you could find some way to sneak those in (mind you, you must be "incredibly" sneaky), he will thank you a LONG.............. way down the road, and yet still deny he liked it. Also if he starts gagging, tell him to suck it up, and say it's for the kids...LMAO!)

I missed my kids terribly. I am glad to be back with them. I am so happy to find a part of myself. Something I hoped I'd find. Now to more growing.

I'd like to end this blog post with:
"Seducing it is like trying to pet a tiger!" - Sean Walts - "...And I just got bit!"
"He just called me it!" - Kristi Walts

"If he crossed the street, I'd run him over" - Josh
"That's mean, really mean! Don't say that..." - Me
"*snickers* It's not like I'd run him over, and set it in reverse and run him over again, and put it in drive and drive over him to drive away..." - Josh
"Wow, Joshua, that's really mean... I am going to pretend you didn't just say that...*trying not to laugh*" - Me

"Say 'Bye' " - Me
"See ya... Never 'Goodbye', always 'See you later' " - Josh
"Okay... Sounds good.." -Me

It's A Person Like You...

It's a person like you, who makes me believe that I have a purpose. That I can really say something so simple and make it aspiring to you. To turn up your favorite song and sing at the top of your lungs. To make you want to finally jump out of your seat and dance. You hate to dance...

You make me want to climb to the top of a mountain, and scream at the top of my lungs. You make me want to shake you (to reality), kiss you (with desire able passion), love you forever (that time could never touch).... something I know in my heart that is not possible. However, I can take in what I have with you and live it to the fullest. Be there when you need me with every beat of my heart. To smile when you frown, to hug you when you are down, comfort you with words when you are stressed, and to play your song when you need a moment of happiness. I have my own purpose for my personal hopes and dreams. Something I am sure that you will never share with me, but they are mine, and only mine. If one day it becomes so that I can share these with you, you will know. Only will you know. Till then, in my dreams will they stay and grow. If only you knew...

When you choose to finally dance, I want to be your last...

It's been a while....

My goodness, I haven't blogged in forever!

This is going to have to be quick. I have to take Mila to the bus for summer school. :D

So... what you've miss unintentionally.

We are in the house! And it's amazing! No more neighbors smoking outside their door on the balcony and having the fear of ash falling on your head and your hair catching on fire. No more smelling weed because of the neighbor next door. No more car dings and scratches because the irresponsible people who don't care for their cars or other peoples cars, and kids shoving themselves between cars with their bikes and toys. No more worries of late night movies, dishwasher and washer washes, and vacuuming!!

The only things we have had to deal with is mowing the lawn every week (which Louie loves!), bees which are getting under control :D, and no water pressure in the kitchen. Oh and an explorer of a dog! (But getting under control!)

I leave Wed. night to go and see my Kristi! I am so so so so so so so excited! I have no idea what to expect and I am going to do my very best to remain optimistic. And on my way home I get to see Josh, :D! It's supposed to be HOT this week and this weekend in both places. Bring on the clinical strength Degree.... UGH! I sure hope it works!

I need to remember to drink lots of water and Emergen-C! In fact I should get a mask to wear while I am on the plane.... Hmm...

So my packing list (I have 10 mins.)

5 shirts/dresses
2/3 pairs of shorts
Bathing suit
1 pair of pajamas
7 pairs of chonies
2 bras
2 pairs of flip flops

shampoo
conditioner
face wash
bar soap (lavender)
face moisturizer
Deodorant
q tips
sunscreen
Burts sun relief
BA cream
BA supplement
Emergen-C
Tylenol
Epilator and charging cord
Electric razor and charging mount
Flat Iron
Volume gel
Hair Brush
Comb
Hair ties
Bobby pins
Hair clips/corks...
Hair serum?
Eye liner
Knitting diary
Holden project pattern
Malabrigo sock yarn in Archangel
US 6 circular needle
Tools (measuring tape, darning needles, stitch markers, scissors, pattern magnet)
Cotton thread
scrap yarn
crochet hook
extra knitting needles to help teach

Cell phone and charger
Ipod and charging cord
Ear buds
Camera and charger
AUX cord
PRINTED TICKETS!!!!
Wallet with ID!!!
Gum.

Done. 8 AM. Gotta run. List is subject to change! :D