There Once Was A Woman...

Who had a bunch of crazy dreams.... dreams that felt so  real. The kind like only happen in fantasies, they really don't happen in reality. Like falling passionately in love... living her life completely intertwined with her soul mate, the lover of all things God given. In a dream where love making happens in exotic places around the world filled with passion and ecstasy. A blissful state for their purpose to share their financial and spiritual wealth with the world. To grow their business to help people reach their financial stability and find peace being debt free and also serving back to the community of people in need. Praising God every moment of everyday for their blessings... saying goodbye to financial debt and spiritual debt because the closer they grow with the Lord the more they are blessed. They are reminded daily of humility and patience by the strength and love of their God. It is the first time they have felt anything close to complete and at peace. Love is tangible in every aspect of their lives as if they were creating Utopia for not only themselves but the opportunity for all those around them to share in doing God's work. This couple is far beyond perfect, in fact flaws are found within their past, blemishes that only God himself could fix. You would never believe where they came from unless you got to know them. In devoting their lives to God they were transformed to being compassionate, empathetic, wealthy people, but with only the help from their Creator....
I wake up to see my messy room longing for that peace, love, and passion. Even that kind of lover. You can only "reap what you sow", and I have sown a lot of sad seeds, and the ones I've sown great were not taken care of. I've been lazy and complacent. I've been filled with anxiety and fear, so I've remained stagnant. I continue to complain of my lack of peace and happiness, yet I have yet to do any work. I have a choice to make this dream, this fantasy, a reality. I've been shown it is possible, now I must make it happen. I almost wonder if he will create his own journey so we may meet up so we can share the same goals in life to create Destiny and reach our fate. I know in this dream my life is completely surrounded by God, that also means that I MUST begin with Him now and that is the only way I will reach that place of bliss. I'm a firm believer that dreams hold meanings, signs, and warnings for our present and future. They also show us the desires of our hearts. I believe God is telling me that it is time to completely drop all of my complacency and temptations and to "pick up my mat, and follow Him". To do His work and in doing it I will find this peace I long for. It is my vision. I can lie here looking at my crop of laziness or I can work and end up in the arms of that man in my dreams that will hold me to the love of God and His work. This man will also provide not only for me, our family, and for his Lord and Savior, but to the community of people who are in need of love, compassion, service and empathy. I will be filled with love, passionate love, and I won't go a day without being shown that I am his queen and I will never tire if showing him he is my king. Because we are a team and together we can concur anything that is evil but with only with the love of our God.

Ho hum...

The choice between the real work or complacency... I'm choosing work.

Yesterday I contacted a couple of people for my job and I was challenged to make a goal to feed 1200 families in a month and a half. 1200 families!! That is insane. I'm not sure how I'm going to go about doing it, but I have a lot of people to start talking to. Our food bank needs it and most of all the families and people it is going to help. I can no longer call complacency a friend and neither an acquaintance, I'm better than that and these people deserve more!! As a mother of 4 I know a bit about how much food a family can go through. All of my children have different appetites, but I am most definitely blessed with good eaters. It can be quite costly if you do not plan well... And we have to plan well. We generally spend anywhere from $100 - $150 a week on groceries for a family of 7. It is a shame that families have to make the choice to either skip a meal during the day to pay a bill or even put gas in their vehicle to get to and from work. I know we live in tight finances sometimes, but we are still quite privileged. Blessed by far compared to many families out there. It is time to pay it back forward in either time, service, or money. The people of our community deserve it.