Learning to Breathe Again....

Gotta Stop. Look. And listen. It can pertain to watching for cars. However, in my case, it is so I don't become overly upset. WHY must I jump up and think and feel the worst? Why can't I learn to just "Let It Be"?

Lately I have been extra emotional and worst of all SNAPPY! YIKES! I don't want to be snappy. (I'm not that person anymore, yet it is resurfacing.) But I am being snappy... but WHY? Things were going so good and I have to go and ruin it by jumping to conclusions and becoming sensitive. Perhaps I am reading into this too much and should just let it go.

Honestly, I know why. I know why I am so sensitive. I know why I expect so much... too much. I know why I feel so disapointed. AND it all has to deal with me! I cannot control the actions of others, BUT I can control how I feel, how I react, and what I do. But why must I do this to myself, time and time again? What must I do to break this cycle?

So many things have happened in the last few months. Things I will choose not to go into detail with but I will say these events have most definately taken a toll on the my relationships in my life. It has caused me a weight that I have chosen to take on and make my own. Some of the things I cannot help but live with, others that I am sure I could walk away from or I could choose to deal with differently. Empathy has the best of me right now. Along with my short term anger. Nothing like how it used to be, but I am allowing it to come by and take control. A bad habit for sure, something I know I don't want back into my life.

Time to break the cycle again. Time to STOP. And learn to breathe again.... Time to go to bed and think some more. Time to LET GO and LET GOD!
Count You Blessings - White Christmas